Chaos in a Box

Seriously, people. Some days I just wish that someone could read my mind, and just organize my thoughts and everything FOR me. My head is so cluttered these days that I don't even know where to begin. Hence the unusual lack of verbiage spewed at my dear old LJ. There is so much to say.... but it's like unraveling a yarn ball.... where to begin?

Vacation....... is not all that I want it to be. I'm working to find a way to fix that.... (where can I go that's random and different, that cost relatively no money to get or stay there?)... but I feel so void of partners in (mis)adventure that it almost seems pointless; I'm sorry, road-tripping by yourself is just no fun.
I dunno.... I've always heard that people that are 'bored' are just boring people. I don't think that's the case at all... I just get bored when I've exhausted all my other options.... I've read until my eyeballs fall out, watched movies, walked the dogs, gone to the gym, cooked, cleaned..... slept. Sleeping seems to be the most entertaining option. NOW what? I guess I'm just not the person that functions well alone. Fine. I admit it. I'm socially dependent.... and I feel SO ISOLATED. BLEH.

In other news, let me tell you about the random dream I had the other night (imput, anyone?): So, I'm walking alone in the midst of a group of about 4-5 other people, all men. In my dream I know them, or have some sense of them being familiar, but in real life they aren't anyone I know. Anyway, we're walking along through what I can best describe as a gorge. On one side of us there is a steep stone face, on the other, stone and embankment, creating a ... valley?... through which we are walking. The whole place seems very ominous and foreboding - there are overhanging trees blocking much of the sunlight, there is murky standing water puddles on the ground... and a lot of shadows. More importantly, we're all picking our way along very carefully, because where ever we look, there are poisonous things. I go to balance a hand on the rock face, but just before I put it down, a huge beetle (that I identify as poisonous in my dream) scuttles out of the way.... I step on a rock to traverse the murky water and there is a creepy slither in the water.... there are black snakes draped in the trees, humungous insects.... etc. etc. etc.... all things that look very dark. Literally and metaphorically. No one is hurt, or gets hurt.... but I know that the danger is there - if the snake gets me, the creature in the water bites, I get stung by one of the giant beetles, etc... Although, I have no idea why we are going this way, or how we headed this way.... all I know is that two guys ahead of me, me, and two-three guys behind me are all headed this way as a group... and there is no particular end to this ominous corridor in sight...... Then I wake up.

Thoughts?

On that note.... off to sleep, I suppose (only 2am?!). Going shopping with Becky tomorrow.... Gotta love window shopping, when you have NOOOOO cash. Bleh. Ah well... at least there will be conversation...

Tags: bored, dreams, vacation
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I'm feeling...: bored
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