First off, I would like to note that it is DAMN cold.

Second, I would also like to note that 4-H is taking their sweet time getting back to me about the job. I am supposed to hear any day now, really... They said 'early' this week... what that means, I have no idea, exactly... but SURELY that means SOON??? I am waiting for news, highly impatiently.

In other news - my dear roomie is getting married! and Holly and I got to meet her fiance - he's super nice. We highly approve of this pairing. AND, I get to be IN the wedding!! Very exciting! And it's in the summer, thank god, because that means I'll have a chance to get a little less pastey-pale before I have to have pictures of me taken. Yikes.

Hmm... what else? it's cold. My Mom, Allan and I have to shovel, either today or tomorrow... they need to get an oil fill... and the oil fill is on the side of the house. What's the problem with that, you ask? Well. With all the snow we've had that means we have to carve a path for the oil guy THROUGH the like 6ft. snowbank on the side of the road, through the 3 foot deep snow everywhere else, to the oil tank. It is a herculean task, to say the least. BLEH.

You know what else is a herculean task? Finding potential living situations that like dogs. Seriously, people... for the number of people that have dogs, how do they ever find places to rent?! I've been scouting apartments and such, because if I get that 4-H job, I'll need to move quickly... And, taking my dog is not a requirement (he can stay here with my mom and our other dog), but it would be nice.... assuage the loneliness of living out in the boondocks. But... I'm not sure that's going to happen, because finding an apartment willing to let you have a dog - much less a 70 pound pit bull - is like finding HALF a needle in a haystack. Argh. I will persevere, though.
I have a lead on a cute little place, though... It's exactly 30 minutes from Justa's work, and 30 minutes from my potential work (which means she'd be willing to move with me!), and it's a small house, 2/br... and he'd be willing to let our dogs come, providing he got to meet them first. Justa and I have an appointment to go check it out on Saturday morning... By then, I should CERTAINLY know if I've gotten the job or not. *crosses fingers*

Oh, randomly - I've put a TON of pictures in my LJ scrapbook, as a means of backing them up (my comp has been doing strange things, of late), so, if anyone wants to check them out, they're mostly from 2000-current. Lots of friend pics, from parties, etc. It's locked to people on my friends -list, so no worries that your face is floating around cyberspace.

Hm.... I suppose that's all. Must go shovel some more, I suppose....

Tags: 4-h, apts, dog, pics
You might find me at: East Barre, Vt
I'm feeling...: cold
I'm rockin' out to:: Ahh... peace and quiet....

I.... don't even know where to begin, tonight.

Angry. Confused. Broken. Resigned. Hopeless. Stupid. Sad. Betrayed.

AND. My cat has an abcess in her toe, causing her to walk on three legs and excude nastiness when you squeeze her toe. ALSO causing me to have to soak it in warm water, etc. And we all know how much cats enjoy water. Tomorrow, I must attempt the amazing feat of bandaging said toe. GREAT. Fortunately, I'm an Animal Sci. Major. I can handle this.

What I can not handle is your bullshit anymore.

I also can not handle the fact that Justa can't make a solid decision on this apartment thing. Either you can accept living in downtown B-town, or you can't. Simple.

I feel a tumulutuous blend of WAY too many things right now to articulate any of them. All I know is that Trying, Good Kharma, Second Chances, Do-over's, Letting go, Forgiveness and all those things are BULLSHIT. Instead, they seem to only get thrown back in your face, again, to finish demolishing any shards of hope that you may have managed to hold onto.

I have been reminded that words are, in fact, meaningless.

However. ( Some lyrics I am identifying with... )

Tags: apts, cat, friends, lyrics
I'm feeling...: pessimistic
I'm rockin' out to:: Simple Plan - Thank You

So. Oh my... long day... stayed at my Mom's last night, and just hung out... it was nice... a weirdly chill weekend. Like... I did *nothing* of real interest.

Today, however, I went up to B-town to do paperwork, and join in a "management" meeting for my new job... should be very exciting... all things I'm comfortable with - managing people, a store... it's all good. PLUS, it is a very entertaining place to be working, especially with an employee discount and Christmas coming....

SO... yeah. My boss seems like she's really cool. She's 30ish, from New York, experienced in this field and sports a "no-nonsense" sort of deal... but, as long as you're doing your shit, she's very cool, and not unreasonable, or un-fun. I love people like that. They just have expectations. I like that. It's always cut and dried what they expect from you, and they have no qualms about telling you how it is.

So. I was there until 8pm. Then I drove home. LOVELY. I'm really hoping Justa checks out that apartment tomorrow, and I think I may have one scheduled to go see on Tuesday.... I'd LOVE to get that all in place for Nov. 1st, so there would be no commuting... but. Who knows. I can hope.

I sense a bit of a conversation coming up, with Justa, though. She is very excited to move to the B-town area (as she works in Williston), and SO excited to move with me (we've been good friends since the dawn of time.).... BUT. Here's the thing. *I* want to live in Downtown Burlington. Walking distance of where I will be working (partially because there is *no* parking on Church Street (the cobblestone marketplace).... which puts us in Downtown Burlington, which while you can find nice places, tends to be chopped up old victorians with a lot of... "character". ?? This doesn't bother me at all. It's all about location for me. It's about walking to the coffee shop (and home from the bar.).

Justa, on the other hand, has a different view point. Where she's working in Williston (like... maybe 5 miles from B-town? 10?) She doesn't want to have to fight traffic out of the downtown of Burlington, and end up driving time-wise a significant amount. SO, she's rather pay the same amount for a nice condo type deal, just outside of the Downtown, and closer to where SHE Works.

*sigh*. What is the solution? It is not so feasible for either one of us to go it alone. So, we need to meet in the middle. BUT, where I asked HER to move with ME, and told her I was moving to downtown B-town, does she really have much to say? ... Surely we can find an acceptable place in the downtown, that will be an okay commute for her?

*SIGH*. Ah well. We will look.

Anyway. I got nothing accomplished this weekend that I needed to, I'm tired like WHOA. And tomorrow will mark the beginning of the End at my current job - my 2 weeks notice countdown begins tomorrow).

OMG!!! I just remembered!!! We have a SHORT WEEK this week!!! EEE!!! and I probably will not have to go to inservice, as I think they're doing CPR and First Aid certs, and where I won't be working there, surely they won't make me go??

Alright. Sleep now. More tomorrow.

I feel like..... crazy. I dunno. Like, I'm running to keep up, but it's just not fast enough....

In other news... I ADORE the new Sister Hazel album - Absolutely - ALL The songs on it are great, but "Mandolin Moon" featuring Shawn Mullins, and "Blame" really stuck out for me.... There's a slower one or two I really liked, but I've only listed a time and a half through, so my critique isn't finished yet... haha

Alright. REally to sleep, this time.

Tags: apts, dcs, nsm, sister hazel
I'm feeling...: tired
I'm rockin' out to:: Mandolin Moon - Sister Hazel