It is not given to men to know the ends of their journeys. It may be that you will never return to the place dearest to you. But how can that matter if what you do is here and now?
--Lloyd Alexander, The Book of Three

I just came across that quote. How true. Reminds me just HOW much I have to work on. hahaha

In other news, I've determined that I REALLY just don't get people. Either that, or I *do* get people, and there really are just a lot of incompetent people out there.

I'm frustrated, right now. Perhaps that is what I should preface this discussion with.

One of my coworkers corners me in the parking lot, before we go in to meet everyone for $2 Margarita night at Julios (post staff meeting). She then proceeds to interrogate me as to what's going on and are things wrong between her and I or her and anyone, or is there something she should know, yadda yadda yadda, on and on. Reluctant to get into this discussion, because time has proven that she can NOT accept fault on HER part, I tried to hedge around everything.... but she kept pushing. Wanting my opinion, and pushing, insisting that something was obviously wrong.
Now.
My initial instinct was to saying something like, "Oh, yeah, something is - You've been a raging bitch to everyone work and socially, you have the maturity level of a ten year old and act it, and I think you're a wicked asshole for leading on our other friend, knowing full well how you have no interest in him. Thanks for making everyone miserable. Yeah. There's some tension. "

BUT. Instead, trying not to cause a war, I tried to avoid saying anything at all, but eventually ended up getting pushed into some sort of sugar coated explanation, to the effect of pointing out that I didn't think she was always aware of how her actions affected other people. VERY nice. VERY tame, and VERY VERY VERY dumbed down - so as not to offend her. (I know, I know, when did the aliens come, and WHERE did they take Aja?)
What does she do? (this is what I get for being nice.) She gets pissed. Defensive. ANGRY. Snaps some things back at me, turns her back and stomps away (hello, 10 year old.). I ask her if she's still coming for drinks and she snaps at me. I tell her it's just my opinion, and it's probably nothing, and she snaps again, over her shoulder at me. Finally, I tell her she can call me later, if she wants to continue this discussion, and she slams her car door at me and speeds off. Awesome.

I go in, I sit down with everyone, and order my drink. About 10 minutes in, She shows up. Smiling, perky and 'fine.' Sits RIGHT next to the person I have just told her she's leading on, flirts with him the whole time, and pretends I don't exist. Her fakeness was OOZING. When I leave, she won't even look at me.

Now, dear LJ. Did I ASK for that? Where was Karma on THAT call? I try and do the nice thing and disengage and walk away... I try and not answer the loaded question, trying not to offend.... And when I do, I stifle ALL my natural reactions and react as pleasantly as possible... and what do I get? Pissy, stomping coworker. THANKS. LOVE THAT.

Meanwhile, every penis-toting individual at work is infatuated with her (can't figure out why), and she continues to be a raging bitch.

I feel as though I DEFINITELY missed a memo.
AND, I feel very disinclined to be nice next time. (this is the 2nd time she's done this to me, and one of several hundred times I've SEEN her do it.)

Anyway... sleep is in order, I suppose. I'm tired...

OH, but tomorrow is Enter the Haggis @ Higher Ground (doors@7pm, show@8pm).... Think Punk/rock meets kilts and bagpipes. It's fun times. Infectious clapping music, even if you don't know the words. I'm excited. I need my live-music adrenaline rush.. haha

Alright. Sleeep.

Tags: annoyance, concert, higher ground, nsm, quotes
I'm feeling...: annoyed
I'm rockin' out to:: Big City Rock - Human